4th of OCT

self check....

been staying off the normal calories and taking the himalaya healthcare detox package which comprise of gokshura, neem and triphala. Each of these bottle is to be consumer in different time of the day, each capsule each. So far the detox process is not much of a hassle, just that i need to remember to drink at least 8 cups of water a day, stay way from dairy products, drinks with caffeine, plus i need to exercise more.

as a result, so far i've lost 2kg in 5-6 days time. will keep up with the momentum as i slim down while i look for a job. hopefully when i start my new job, i have a fitter and healthier body.

drink more water, that's one thing that i have been reminding myself a lot. go go go

OCT - weight losing month...

darn, i'm @ 82kg after my trip back from Taman Negara. you've been lazy and didn't go much is it? Neh, my sweating my guts out n working like a real donkey @ Taman Negara. But substantially, i'm eating up as much as well as working out does whipped up a good appetite.

Therefore i will be going on a workout, weight losing for the month of Oct. Low fat, low carb, and protein food. Got to wake up for that early job and some basketball while i'm at it. Need to lose the belly as well... Darn, it needs to go...will do a daily update on my progress to act as an little journal for me...

all the best ya! *self reminder

stay off the junk food for starters....sigh

a thin line between a perfect day and a screwed one...

we do usually start off the day being positive and trying to end a day with what's left from the morning. hence the thin line of erupting easier sometimes due to small little mistake/misunderstanding/stupidity of control over you emotions and let it take a rip over you living body. Ending the day at a sour note isn't much of what most people would want. I did sort of just did one for today. Since long i've not felt so down, well, due to low self esteem problem that i'm facing since i'm jobless and searching for a job, starting to get a little desperate. i read the emotions of the opposite party wrongly, didn't handle it properly and whoosh, it flew over my head and i end up writing this pickle tasting post and feel sorry for myself and those i've hurt. Darn. i hate myself now....

gosh, what a way to end a day....

buzzer beater <<零秒出手>> review

Buzzer beater, in a comic and anime. Just recently the named was used for a short film series, 11 episodes that portraits a guy with a dream of being the best professional basketball player and a girl with the dream of being a outstanding violinist. A pretty short and simple series with a few twist around love, fate and achieving your dreams. But the sub is in Chinese, sorry for those who can't read it, maybe later it will come up with a English sub for it. ;)

for those who want to find the BT seed. try the below link

http://www.netme.cc/airways/thread-489517-1-1.html

i rate it a 8.5 for a short n simple series, right to the point and made me chase it even it is just a few episodes. maybe i loved basketball, so it wasn't that bad for me. :)

the path of life....

Been in the jungle for two month before coming back to search for a perm job. well, things aren't going as well as i think it would, maybe i am just desperate for something right to just pop up in front of me when i wanted it to. but well, life is just so miraculous that things don't really work out like that. so i shall have my patients light on and wait for it, but before anything happens, tightening the belt of spending would be the key to success to weathered through this storm of mine.

a lot of ppl might have been asking, what the hell is this two legged donkey running around in the jungle for two months for? i was with a production filming a reality show in the jungles of Pahang. It was a fun filled experience for me to work closely with professionals in the filming industry that has tons of experience. Animals handlers that practically can have their hands on any animal/insects that they can find.

time really flies and now thinking of where next. :)

Goodbye Y.A - R.I.P

"Acclaimed Malaysian film and advertising director Yasmin Ahmad has passed away at 11:52pm Saturday night at the age of 51, after collapsing from a stroke at a media presentation the day before. She leaves behind a legacy of film that captures the modern multicultural spirit of Malaysia, winning international festival awards and local hearts while at the mercy of conservative censors."

taken from http://www.metafilter.com/83579/Yasmin-Ahmad-1958-2009

althought i've not a favourite fan of hers, but i do watch a few movie and know about the history of a great woman that inspired a lot of talented talents in Malaysia to test and push their limit in this struggling industry where sensitivities are everywhere from every aspect of our lives.

Thank you for what you've done for Malaysia and for the younger generation. :)

RIP and condolences to the family of Yasmin Ahmad. She is a great lost to us as well and to Malaysia.

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a mist infront of me...

well, i am not sure if it is a mist or a bloody haze, clouded as can be. darn...get me out of here plz!

rich n powerful vs justice

well, this is pretty interesting topic while i was having breakfast one day with my sis, she mentioned about what will you choose to describe the current society today. well, my take to this would be, the rich and powerful does make the work a little chaotic as it is today as we see it. From what i see there are a lot of losers in our community today, to be cunning, to be merciless and to be worthless human being that would do anything to achieve their goals, turning them rich and powerful...but is there justice in this world that would stand in their way which i always would think that what comes around goes around. Just that we don't really see it as they come swinging by the door and thus continuing on doing what they do best.

is it fung shui? or it is just revenge of life that comes knocking on your door? sometimes some people just lost the conscious to just pursue that path for their life...i wonder...

time to knock out for the day...will continue to ponder further in the mystery of my life as i am wondering off again to search for my directions again. wow wee. this is gonna be more fun than last time around. wish me luck

what the f*ck is wrong...

well, things started off pretty good in my new environment in my work, i'm not sure if it's me or what, why the catastrophe always comes near where i feel comfortable. i love my current job, i am enjoying the parts and bits of what i am doing, but why does someone else in the same boat have to rock it and make turbulence. what the f*ck is wrong with these ppl. Don't they have grace, don't they have a brain, don't they have the urgency of profesionality, don't they have courtesy so say sorry when they are wrong.

what they have are the blood stain ass of pride and mannes ego that is so big that clouds their mind and judgement. i always thought that woman take a little more effort to comfort and please, but then only i figure out, ass wiping men are worst, they are like babies with their napies and don't even know what is the meaning of self esteem, to chase after the life that dreams can only come true if they work harder, but no, they decided to push pen around rather than figure out how it works. Never in their lives that they thought that with a little more effort, just a little more, they can achieve more than the average push cart fella stacking trolley in the mall. Maybe those ppl can do better in their job than those of my known crowd. Go cry to your mommy and daddy, work is cruel, life is cruel, survival of the fittest wins and i intend to win, i am no loser in life and i don't plan it to be so. Don't make me lift my finger as i don't intend to. But don't make me, once i do, there will be no more honeymoon for you, ever....i promise...